It is Saturday and I haven’t written in several days. I have had many struggles this week as I returned to work and a new way of working. As a teacher in a pandemic there have been many things determined that are out of my control. However, I was granted my request of teaching virtually. This was a decision I made for multiple reasons. What I didn’t know was truly how hard it would be. If you have never been a teacher then you do not know the struggles we face on a day to day basis. It is hard being in the classroom and it is hard teaching virtually. This is my main area of struggle. First week back and I am struggling. I have been working so hard during this pandemic to put my mental health first and this week took a toll on me.
I stayed with getting on the treadmill every morning, but my miles are significantly down from last week. My miles equate to dollars to support Operation Persistent Support so not only is it important for me to get in those miles for my mental health those miles add up to dollars. I have just a few more days of my commitment so I am going to finish the month strong. I completed five miles on the treadmill this morning and I plan to do five more miles later this evening. I had been planning out my miles daily and slipped this week. I planned on 10 miles today and I will get them in even through a split. It is important to me to keep my word.
Through this week I have continued to read and write. This has been a large part of my improving my mental health and planning for my future. Through my reading and some previous advice I made a plan to post here daily. I love writing, running, and my family. I want to share my ideas, wins, and struggles here. This blog I feel is the starting point for a new phase in my life. Writing here daily is going to improve me, my relationships, and help me move forward in the direction of my goals.
While this week has been a struggle for me it has been a wonderful week for A. She started preschool and loves it. At first she said she didn’t want to make new friends, but by the end of the week she was telling us about playing with blocks with her friends. I enjoy her happiness and love for learning. She can always put a smile on my face. It is a true joy to come home and have her run up to me or have her look at J and tell him “Hey mommy’s home.” There is nothing better in this world than being a mom. My two big kids are successful and though we don’t talk every day I am truly proud of them. They are the best big sister and brother A could have. She talks about them all the time and would spend every second with them if it were possible.
Mileage Update: 107.62
I have another 5 miles to get in this evening. Then I will complete miles on Sunday and Monday. I will update Monday evening on the total that I have raised for Operation Persistent Support. In the meantime go check out the Facebook page, like it, share it. Tell your friends about OPS and about my blog.
Until next time, go for a run, do something you are passionate about, and remember it is okay to struggle but don’t stay down there too long.Get up and dust yourself off. Get back into the positive head space even if it is just a couple of days at a time. Move forward.